This week has been hard; probably one of the hardest of my life, along with miscarriages and Dan’s cancer diagnosis and surgery. If you haven’t seen my last blog post or any of my recent social media posts, a week ago, our family, friends and church suffered a horribly unexpected loss. A core student of our high school ministry, who volunteered a ton in the church nursery and was my littlest guy’s “best friend,” took his own life. It is a tragic loss as this amazing young man had such a passion for God and serving…I’ve never seen a heart so big in a 16 year old boy. Payton and his mom and family are extra special to me, because they’ve taken care of all my kiddos at church, but have always had an extra special place for Connor in their hearts. We love them so much and this loss is taking a deep toll on our community and church.
It’s been hard to focus on my dreams and passions and revival camp in the midst of this. I’ve been reading and journaling a lot in Psalms 34, especially verse 18. “The Lord is close to the broken hearted and rescues the crushed in spirit.”
I started doing this week of Grounded last Saturday afternoon before we got the news. It feels like a lifetime has passed since then but these concepts have actually run very true this past week. This devotional spoke about being grounded in the Word. We must dig deep and stand firm in the Word of God. When we do this, we are able to defend our passions and just face the trials of life.
Being grounded means being placed on a firm foundation. The only foundation that can secure our lives is the Word of God. If we want to be grounded, we must stay in His Word. When we stand firm and dig deep, it allows us to go through life on the solid foundation God has built for us. Things will come that will shake us, but we are grounded in His Truth and Word. Don’t get over-run by lies. We have to run every thought through the filter of, “What does God’s Word say?”
This has been so crucial this week. When it feels we are standing in the midst of a torrential downpour and epic storm and everything is swirling around us, we can find solid ground in God’s words to us. His words are always true. They are the promises we can plant our feet on even when everything else feels like it’s slipping away. This loss has been heart breaking, but as we dig into His Word, we see that God is near the broken hearted. He is near and we do not face this alone. When we mourn the fact that we don’t get to see Payton in our daily lives, we read 1 Thessalonians 4:13-14 and remember that we grieve with hope because we will see Payton in Heaven one day! These are promises we can cling to and be grounded in.
Even when I thought I wouldn’t be able to relate to this week, once again, the theme as been applicable and relatable. God moves in crazy ways that we will never understand. But we can trust His Word. Dig deep. Stand firm. Lean in. Be grounded.